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Dreaming Happy Life

I’ve had much much much much happiness todaaay!!!

In the morning I have to attend talkshow in Mayapada Hospital. It such a great time!! First, because the place is so amazing (first time of my life come to such hospital like that OMG) and I feel like kinda ‘upgraded’ because many experiences we got there. Second, because I met my high school friend there (she’s so cute as always!) and we were chit-chatting and take photo! Third, because I had a great quality time with BEM-J members! (Thanks guys! You are the BEST!!)

Guess which girl am I? Heheheh...
Guess which girl am I? Heheheh…

Second, back from there I decided to go to mall. Well, usually I don’t like malls actually. But don’t know why my feet got me there, and yes, by myself. I always love hanging around by myself because it feels so free! I went to any store as I pleased. I checked the CD store, shoes store, make up & drugs store, accessory & fancy store, and, (of course by any chance) bookstore.

Aaaaand guess what’s in the bookstore? There are k-pop dance battle competition!!!! I always enjoyed dancing as I enjoyed other kinds of art. And seeing them, in キラキラ and unique costumes along with full make up on, dance follow the music, suddenly I just want to burst out of laugh and happiness!! Always always always felt like that if I seeing a moment when people could do what they passionated for independently. Not every people could do what they want to do, you know? So if I seeing somebody doing their passion and interest with full of love and dedication, whatever it is (as long as it’s positive things) simply I burst in happiness too. And for that dancers, they love dancing, sure! I could feel that! So although they seems so shy, I could feeling they’re happy and glad, thus it make me excited too!

And before I back home, there’s a stage in hall (which I don’t notice earlier) and there’s a guy playing some woodwind instruments there! All songs he played flow serenely that make me almost burst out in tears of happiness and joy. I got the flyer about him. Check him out if you please, here! I guaranteed he is soooo good!

So in way back home I think about what is it to be living in happiness. Many people searching hard to get happiness of life. That sometimes in return they couldn’t got the happiness they search but got endless sorrow instead. But actually, there’s a simple thing to be happy. A simplest thing that we already had without we have to search anywhere.

Just be grateful for what you’ve got, and searching for what you haven’t got with sincerity.
Your God knows what the best for you, He had giving you the best, and He will always give you the best.

Thanks for this day Ya Allah. I feel so blessed…

PS: DOMINO! Currently addicted to their songs and listened it all NONSTOP!


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Finally! ALL of my exams of-fi-ci-a-lly done todaay!! Now my holidays officially begin!! But, well, too bad to not being in 1st and 2nd semester anymore because started from 3rd semester, it would take two and more whole months for the exams and if that’s all over, the campus day already begin whether we ready or not yet.

What I wanna say is, I officially don’t have holiday! The exams finish today in 19th Feb and the next semester already start on 24th Feb! It means, *CountingMyFingers* there’s only Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday more to rest. But I have to do some BEM business in Fri and Sat so I only own TWO days to rest! Oh, it’s soooooo good to be a busy person! Yaaaay!!! *SarcasmTone* =I


Let’s move from my rest-day-supossed-to-be topic, I promised myself to open my CD package after I finish the whole exams, so it means today!!

Here! Here! Take a look!!!

This is how the package look like when I opened it. Guess what? I got the limited poster bonus!! YAYNESS!!
This is how the package look like when I opened it. Guess what? I got the limited poster bonus!! YAYNESS!!
The appearance of three bundle of CD, DVD, and Photo Booklet.
The appearance of three bundle of CD, DVD, and Photobook.
My first official NICO poster!! Kinda don't like the paper because it's kinda stiff and don't have plastic film so very risky and easily torn
My first official NICO poster!! Kinda don’t like the paper because it’s kinda stiff and don’t have plastic film so very risky and easily torn
The side appearance of CD, DVD & Photobook bundle
The side appearance of CD, DVD & Photobook bundle


Limited DVD case
Limited DVD case
Limited Photo Booklet
Limited Photobook
Limited CD case
Limited CD case

Dear, Mr. Mitsumura, don’t you know you just make me feel…….. *speechless in love*

PS: Super sorry for the low quality photos 😦

My Artist Side


Currently excited towards Lomo Oktomat Camera!!!


I thought Lomo Camera won’t be so pricey at all. Since that vintage thing is basically not a highly-digital-tech-using camera. Even, it’s look like a toy!! I mean, look at the colourfullness and the plastic body! And so, for a camera I think it’s a cheap one. But, oh God, 60$-300$ I think not so-so price for unemployed student’s wallet!!

Well, since this type of Lomo is the cheapest one, I should start to saving for it! So much happiness!!



PS: Getting ready for my very last practical exam, Physical Analytic! Have to shut down the laptop and start my bat-studying!! SUPER POWER, 行くぜ!!!!!!!!

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来た !!!!!!!

I’ve just gone through the most terrible-hardest-mentaltesting practical exam, Chromatography!!! This is basically the hardest practical exam in this semester, even, in my lifetime of college by now. So many frustrating-and-sleepless nights I went through that feels like I have no time to think about other things! But the worst is, I don’t know whether I passed it or not because the announcement will be on tuesday and it means sooooo long time waiting!! Oh my…

Now I know why majors such like chemical, medical, pharmacy, nurse, and something similars is so so so so soooo HARD! Why? Because we NOT JUST have to face stressfull week(s) of written exams like any other majors! Instead, we have to face BOTH written and practical exams, which is the practical exam basically mooooooore harder and frustrating than written exams. We’re not just study and memorizing the theory and write it blah blah blah on the sheets, but AFTER THAT, we have to praticing what we have wrote, in the laboratorium. And I tell you, IT’S NOT EASY AT ALL.

Ah, just remember, I’m not blog to talk about it… (Now you know how frustrated I am, huh?)

Instead, I blog for this!!!!

My Nico Touches the Walls no Best Limited CD had arrived!!!! Yaaaaayyy!!!
My Nico Touches the Walls no Best Limited CD had arrived!!!! Yaaaaayyy!!!

My package had come three days ago, one day right before my chromatography exam (╥﹏╥). It such a huge temptation but I can control myself and keep it sealed before I open it after my practical exam is finish!!!

Kinda surprising me actually, that I thought my package will come on late february, but it had reached my home TWO DAYS after the releasing!! Impressing isn’t it?”

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I bought it from CDJapan with EMS method shipping and I say I quite satisfied, although it’s officially the most expensive thing I’ve ever buy!! Aish, Indonesian Rupiah’s strenght is really low these years, huh?

Counting how much I want it, how far it imported from, how fast it arrived in my home, and how high the cost (of course [✖﹏✖]), should I crowned it as my best-buy of once-in-a-lifetime??

Now please just finish fast, you, hella’ exams! So I can open my treasure!!!

My Blabber Side

Que Sera-Sera

A few days ago, I got a chance to had a day-out with Shiki Otome! That’s an extremely rare chance though! We have been close friends since about 6 years ago but since entered the university, we’ve being so busy yet don’t really have time to go day-out or one-day-tour anymore… I guess last time we met completely in four is…more than a year ago?

So I met them and feel so excited and realize, apparently, four of us had been upgraded well. I use “upgraded” because for me it means “changed to be better version”, and so of us!

Uchi is basically the smartest among us, but she had grown more and more smarter than ever! And her guitar skills had improved extremely well too! I guess she passed me already! Geez, I have to practice more, hahahah!
Iru had being a beautiful lady! Our princess had veiled and she became more independent. And still, she is so on time like always! I have to learn how to value time from her…
And Rui, guess she is always be our Master-of-Art!! No one can defeat her, I guess! She indirectly teach me how to feel the passion and be brave to make true our dream.

I guess we have not drastically change. I mean, we not change into a different person who are not us at all. I just me, they just them, we are just us, but in way better version. And it relieves me.

And I guess life is like that. Girls are grown to be beautiful lady and boys are grown to be handsome man. But the change in psychic and mind, it’s depend on how we life.

Remember the song “Que Sera-sera” ? First time I listen it in elementary ages, I instantly ask my mother for the same question all over again. But no matter how much I ask, she never answered “Que sera-sera”. Instead, she always answered “By eating well, studying well, treat others well, and behave well, sure you’ll grown up beautiful and rich and smart.”

So that time I got a think that “Que sera-sera” is awful. Not the song, but the thought. We can’t just wait and see what life will bring us in the future, but we have to make THAT FUTURE on our own! Since that, I life in that mindset, that I set my plans and target in future from a very young age. But when I grown up and I go through that thing I used to call it “Future”, I just realize again that sometimes things cannot go on our own way. The “Que sera-sera” apparently just exist. And so, I just know that “Que sera-sera” things is Allah’s own way towards myself.

Many things not going right in my life, but at the very least I learn so many things and upgraded to be better person too. So many obstacles between me and my hopes, but I want (and I will) stay believing and keep struggling towards.

True that we can’t really got hands of everything in our life. There will always be God’s hands too that sometimes things not going like what we’ve been planned. But we have to fight with our faith along with keep believing in God. Never doubt your God. Give Him one hundred percent of your faith and He will grant your “Que sera-sera” into something you wish.