My Artist Side

My Soul is Dry. I have to Draw Something.



The first time of my life, got my sketches scanned. It felt so magical. I have to do it more often.

I’m so tacky, I know.

My Blabber Side · My Writer Side

Goodreads Tag and Book Review Competition

So that when I currently had my blog-walking, I found this interesting tag on a beautiful blog here. I never tagged anything by anyone before here on the blog (tragic) so I think it’s gonna be fun! Just check it out guys!

What was the last book you marked as read?

Wicked 3: Legacy, which is the last part of Wicked trilogy written by Nancy Holder & Debbie Viguie (Well, it’s actually more than ‘trilogy’  but in Indonesia, it just three of them 😦 ). I fall in love with this sequel because Wicked 1: Witch it’s so….. how I gonna describe it? Dark, cold, cruel, but in the same time, echanted. So my typical of fantasy story (dreamy-fluffy-sugary fantasy is ABSOLUTELY not me). BUT (beware the capslocked ‘but’ here) I thought Wicked 2: Curse not leave me the same impression and so do Wicked 3. It’s feel so not well-builted. Not a massive dissapoint actually, but it’s not fulfill my so-so expectation.

What are you currently reading?

Actually, I’m still working on my practical exams so I don’t have much spare time. But there’s one book I have not finished yet, it’s the first book of Minamoto no Yoritomo by Eiji Yoshikawa. I’m about three-fourth to reach the end but I thought Wicked would be more ‘light’ on my chaotic mind that time so I just leave it just like that. Maybe I would finish it if I have such a time… yes?

What was the last book you marked as to read?

In the Goodreads? Well it written Flowers in the Attic by V.C Andrews, which I actually have no idea what and who. Maybe it automatically added when I join a free giveaway?? o___o

What do you plan to read next?

There are some of my haul from Jakarta Book Fair that still plastic sealed, and after sucha’ eenie-meenie-miney-moe-ing so hard (I can’t choose one! I love all of them and I want to read all of them on the same time! Crazy enough!) I think I would like to read WolfSangel by M. D. Lachlan.

BUT. Again.

When I visited my auntie home to search a peaceful spot to study last week, I found Musashi and Taiko by Eiji Yoshikawa which is shocked me. I was like “EEEEHHHHH??????!! WHAT IS IT??? WHY DON’T YOU TELL MEEEEE????!!!!”

So, well, I think I still cannot decide one among three of that. Poor me.

Like Frank Zappa said “Too many books, so little time.”

Do you use the star rating system?

Honestly I love to use number system more in the scale of 0 to 10. But, it’s kinda bothersome to convert it into stars when I rate on Goodreads, so I start to make myself used on star system. (Which is I still don’t like it yet)

Are you doing a 2014 reading challenge?

Of course! What funny is, I use my age as my goal number! Haha! So it’s 20 books this year! Actually my reading speed is, well, sonic-speed, if I may said. But since I’m entered the college that seems doesn’t want to provide enough spare time for me, I can merely finish 300-pages book in two weeks or more! See how lame! That’s why I can’t fulfill last year’s challenge.

But I’m not a person who stick on the target like that thus don’t really intend to push myself so hard to reach that 20-books goal so I will just read anything and anytime I want with freedom! Heheheh… (Cih, lazyass… -___-)

Do you have a wishlist?

Before starting, I warn you that it will be a loooooong answer. To be honest, almost the best part of my wishlist had I got in later Jakarta Book Fair. But, well, my wishlist is countless, with SO-SO price and I’m just unemployed student with so-so wallet. So this is would be the most-wished-among-those-wished-books. Honestly I want to make it Top Five, but I can’t helped so it would be Top Six books…

Actually I’m not really into The Hunger Games trilogy since the first time I read the first book. It has too peculiar concept and so illogical and somehow it unacceptable by me. BUT, when I watch Catching Fire, I OBSESSED by Peeta-Katniss love story. So I think it maybe worth to buy the last of trilogy just for it.

Like what I always said: Katniss-Gale is SUCK. Katniss-Peeta RULE THE WORLD!

There’s something funny about  it. One day when I’m in public transportation, there’s a guy next to me currently read this book, on the first chapter. So sneakily I join him to read (of course he didn’t know!) and how I amazed by just read a little part of it. Afterwards, I might just reach half of chapter when suddenly he close the book and move to the other chair. It soooo broke my heart! So I promise myself to buy that books someday! Which still not came true until today. Heheh (PITY)

  • Dracula by Bram Stoker

This could be my forever-wishlist item. I want it sooooooo bad since I’m still on Junior High, and I can’t say how glad I am when it’s finally pressed on the new cover by Gramedia (which the cover is sooooo beautiful) and when I had enough money to buy it, it was SOLD OUT.


Am I the only one who catched by the comical side and freshness of this book? I don’t need to explain a long reason. I just want it. I.WANT.IT.SO.BAD. Aposhthrope!

I think I need such this motivational book. I’ve read it a little in the bookstore when I’m about to buy another book so I end up bought that ‘another’ but I leave with a strong will that I would buy this book ASAP.

Still, it’s about fashion design. I search through the internet whether I could find a good reference book of fashion design and so much people in fashion design study recommended it. But since it still not available in Indonesia, I have to buy it through Amazon with the high shipping price! Geez!!

What book do you want to buy next?

I don’t know! I still on the dilemma! Maybe one of those above to tickling at least one of my wishlist. (Or should I wait for the next Jakarta Book Fair? Heheh 😀 )

Do you have any favourite quotes?

I do. A lot. But I usually forget it when I finish the books so guess I can’t serve you anything. Sorry…

Who are your favourite authors?

For a local author, I love Poppy D. Chusfany. Because first time I know her is when I’m still in Junior High School and that time, bookstore dominated by teenlit and chicklit so fantasy still not popular like these days. But she is the one who ensure me that fantasy can works here in Indonesia. And it does! You can see by the huge number of fantasy books here on the bookstore. Even, I’ve had talked to her about fantasy and she gaves me a nice link to a best-ever Indonesian fantasy groups!

And the rest, I don’t really pay attention on the author. Just the book. But my best author ever is Roald Dahl, Charles Dickens, and Lewis Caroll. And of course, the one and only my master, Edgar Allan Poe. Well, classic author is timeless and unbeatable.

Have you joined any groups?

I DO! Like I’ve said before, it is Le Chateau de Phantasm. A local fantasy writer groups that through there, I learn A LOT, I grown A LOT, I ‘upgraded’ A LOT, I could be a more more and more better writer that I’ve ever had. Still, I’m an amateur writer who have a lot to learn, but LCDP such one of best parts of my life. I swear!


So that’s my Goodreads tag! Hope you enjoyed it and PLEASE, not to fall on sleep (:P )

I tagged all of YOU to do it and please link down below on the comment!

Ah, one more! I currently join Book Review Competition on Bookoopedia


So here are my reviews.

  1. The Inventions of Hugo Cabret

  2. Wolf Totem

  3. Sang Pemimpi

  4. The Da Vinci Code

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My Fashion Madness Side

Rule Breaker

Sliding on my white pieces and decide to wear it in a different way. The cape is actually a shawl and the dress is actually a skirt.

I found the gloves on random in extremely cheap price and quite impressed that it matched with my beanie. Oh, and bear with me because I obsessed with this green beanie so I wear it over and over agaiiinn… Hehehe.  How I love winter essentials eventhou’ the real cold weather never been here in Indonesia.




My Artist Side · My Blabber Side

The More Chaos My Head, The More Hard I Play

Just make this random video LOL. Actually the video is for Rui and Uchi (we have fresh upcoming secret project!!!), Hey you guys can hear me??!!

When I’m not in the good condition, I sing, I make a song, I read a book, I draw, I fangirling (YES, THIS!), I tried to take some good photos. I buy magazine and learn about design or styling, I do a LOT of other things. Somehow those things are BIG help that everybody can’t do for me.

BTW, suddenly I miss dancing…

Should I make a cover dance video, huh? Maybe one from PERFUME? Heheheh….

My Artist Side · My Blabber Side · My Chaotic Philosophy · My Fashion Madness Side

I Start to Seeing The World With The Different Perspective


Finally I can see the purpose of my life clearly. What it really is, how I gonna do it and how I gonna live it. I’ll definitely make it happen when the time come.

Now all I have to do is stay patient and keep strong.

Thank You Ya Allah.

Music · My Blabber Side · My Chaotic Philosophy · My Music Geek Side

Someday When I Grown Up to Someone I’ve Always Been Dreaming of, Would I Laugh When Remembering These Present Times?

Between take care of proposal this and that, meeting here and there, analysis practical now and then, and report assignments one after (or even before) another, I’m curious how could I still manage to breathe. Thus as a climax, season of practical exams come again like life doesn’t allow me to take even few minutes to relax. Just hear about that words, “Practical exams” my head become more chaotic than ever. Too chaos that I feel just… blank.

Now that I have one whole week at home before those all begin, I have more spare time (which I supposed to study but I’m not) to start figuring out everything from the very beginning.

The things that I have to do now with countless tears and sacrifice, what it is for?
What the most precious thing for me now?
What the things that right for me are?
What is matter the most for me?
What the most valuable thing on me?
What I really want for my life?

Now that I stop to listen to other people and tend to be true for myself. But, still, I can’t overcome the feeling that everyday I’m losing my precious things, one by one. Including my lifetime.

Sometimes I tried to understand about what I really thinking about, what I really wishing for. So many things I can’t understand even now. Sometimes when I walk in the street, I stop by just to see how everything is going around me. That pedicab driver, is he happy with his job? That bussiness woman, is she having a good time of her life? That laughing childs, is they already know what the meaning of life? That mother, why she still wants to have a baby eventhough the cost of living become so incredible today? That punk street-singers, did they had graduated from school or even rejected it?

And how about me? I literally have everything. A warm house, intact family, well educated, complete body parts, eat three times a day even more, but why I still has lost something in my life? However so many people with incapability, how about them? I’m really shallow as a human, right? I can’t bear with the fact that I grieving a lot while so many people out there would die to have my life.

Spending all my time almost every single hours in this week in front of laptop, somehow few answer of my questions just show itself. Like, “Yes, I know I meant to that” and “Apparently this is what I really am” and “This is the right thing for me” but when I take back myself into the reality I have to face, it just like something has seized from me rudely. When people around me talk about the future, I won’t have much to say. Why? Because I can’t stop the feeling that the right future will not come to me, ever.

Then I started to ask to myself, why I want this and not that? If it is going that case, everything would seems easier. I’m not really an open person. Afterall, if only I tell somebody, then they will reply or even giving advice, it always comes to: NO, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND. It’s not like this. It’s not gonna happen like that, YOU ARE WRONG.

Now I understand, life is not confusing. Even, life is fair. The fairest thing that we could imagine. However, human who makes it more dificult that it really is. Like, how the power of chaotic mind could make the body fell sick eventhough the doctor couldn’t find any disease. Like my body nowadays.

If only I had surplus money, I would go to psychologist or mental therapist for sure.