Japanese · My Blabber Side

ありがとう

ねぇ、お母さん、私になれて、どうするの?何してるの?私はあまりは強くないわ、あなたにちがう。だって、こんな事会ったら私大変困れちゃう。なんて世界は壊れちゃった見たい。そんなバケモノたちがなぜどこまでもあるのかなぁ?でも、私はあなたじゃなくてぜんぶ向けてよ。私が弱虫人の娘じゃないだから!

ねぇ、お母さんは私になれて、あの人々はぜっっっっっったいふくしゅうをうけとるのでしょう?私も。私の力になてありがとう、お母さん。

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My Blabber Side · My Chaotic Philosophy · My Fashion Madness Side

Wishlist Number #70

It’s obvious for me now. When you are chosen as a leader, it means that you have to dive yourself in the middle of so many people.

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And because more people means more opinions to face, no matter how hard you tried the best, there are always people who mock you, stab you, make fun of you. Just because they are not satisfied of what you had done.

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However, it’s a free world! Everyone allowed to have their own opinion, so it’s up to them. But despite to satisfied or dissatisfied your people, being a leader means you have to think over what’s the best of everyone. That the point.

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Never let them freakin’ you out! Just stay focus!

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PS: I always adore how boys wear oversized shirt and look amazingly cool with it. So when oniichan is not home, I tried to sliding his wardrobe to grab some great oversized shirt! See, this dark brown corduroy shirt is belong to him! And still so many great piece in his wardrobe to go! Just can’t wait another time to play with them!

Music · My Artist Side · My Music Geek Side

PELANGI

Tittle: PELANGI
Written By: Me

‘Ku ingin tanya padamu
Apa rasa kebebasan itu?
Setelah kau kecap wangi udara yang tak semu.

Bolehkah kutanya lagi?
Bagaimana semu aindah bagimu?
Haruskah kau sakit dan terluka berat dahulu?

Seraya jari tertunjuk ke langit
Matahari dan bulan silih berganti.
Batas dunia tak berbeda lagi.

Dan aku mencari pelangi
Demi tiap langkah yang t’lah terlalui.
Kau berkata semua akan baik saja
kau sungguh tak mengerti.
Kucari dunia sejati
Tanpa bayang kaca silih berganti
Hapuskanlah rintik-rintik ini.

Sedikit demi sedikit
Warna-warna terang yang berlalu
Berputar, berkelip, menghalangi kepulan debu.

Tak usai aku bertanya
Apa yang dimaksud ‘hati’ itu?
Hanya imajinasi, tak ada yang sungguh mengerti.

Bisakah waktu diputar kembali?
Tapi walau pun mungkin tak perlu lagi.
Kehidupan yang berbeda dimensi.

Dan aku mencari pelangi
Demi tiap langkah yang t’lah terlalui.
Kau berkata seolah terlihat mudah
Kau sungguh tak mengerti.
Kucoba halangi mentari
Silau menyakitkan seperti sunyi
Bangunkanlah mimpi buruk ini.

Ketika semua halnya
Mulai melebur di udara
Cobalah ucapkan sepatah kata saja
Di dunia berselimut emosi.

Dan aku mencari pelangi
Demi tiap langkah yang t’lah terlalui.
Kau berkata semua akan baik saja
kau sungguh tak mengerti.
Kucari dunia sejati
Tanpa bayang kaca silih berganti
Hapuskanlah rintik-rintik ini…
Bangunkanlah mimpi buruk ini…

 

PS : Just recorded this now, but it’s actually written about a month ago while practical exams still on (pardon me, I can’t stop to turn my feelings into songs hehehe). And please bear with my mess voice HAHAHAHA

My Writer Side

Of the Master

I’m loving Edgar Allan Poe as I loving gothic and dark art more, including art of words. And let me share you the poem from Poe that I love the most:

Spirits of the Dead

by Edgar Allan Poe
(published 1829)

Thy soul shall find itself alone
‘Mid dark thoughts of the grey tomb-stone —
Not one, of all the crowd, to pry
Into thine hour of secrecy:
Be silent in that solitude
    Which is not loneliness — for then
The spirits of the dead who stood
    In life before thee are again
In death around thee — and their will
Shall then overshadow thee: be still.

For the night — tho’ clear — shall frown —
And the stars shall look not down,
From their high thrones in the Heaven,
With light like Hope to mortals given —
But their red orbs, without beam,
To thy weariness shall seem
As a burning and a fever
Which would cling to thee for ever :

Now are thoughts thou shalt not banish —
Now are visions ne’er to vanish —
From thy spirit shall they pass
No more — like dew-drop from the grass:

The breeze — the breath of God — is still —
And the mist upon the hill
Shadowy — shadowy — yet unbroken,
Is a symbol and a token —
How it hangs upon the trees,
A mystery of mysteries! —

Credits : The poem I read and pasted from here

Music · My Fangirl Side · My Music Geek Side

The Hunting Party

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Actually I wanted to review the songs of the album, one by one. But I ended up too lazy to do anything. So let me say few words about it.

Somehow I can’t figure out the album. The hunting Party sounds less framed for my ears. I do love heavy metal dan screamo songs, but I prefer to the melodical one, not a raw-and-real screamo. So to say, I more likely the past Linkin Park typical songs. With the melodical rap, vocal, and scream blended altogether beautifully.

For the album, I love Final Masquerade, Rebellion, Until It’s Gone, War, Guilty All the Same, Wasteland. I’m okay with Mark the Graves, All For Nothing, and thus the rest… I don’t really get it.

BUT ONE THING TO BE SURE.

I always love their lyrics. From their beginning until now, always so meaningful built with sharp methapors and keen words. Their song are priceless, if we able to see those beneath.

Because music taste is more to personal and relatively different according to the person, how many stars I give, it doesn’t matter. May I say this for thousand times, that I’m growing up listening Linkin Park. So they are always be in my A-list of musician, no matter what.

My Fashion Madness Side

Day to Remember

The more I think about life, the more I don’t understand. I thought there is a reason behind everything, but sometimes one by one things occur and we do not even see the pattern of it. Laugh, cry, angry, shy, agony. Sometimes so hard to follow the changes of emotions.

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Have you ever asking, what you’ve been born for? Why you have to living the life and make it on your own? Or simply have you ever asked, what is the life itself?

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Had been living for 20 years, I think I would get to know everything someday. But somehow why do I feeling I don’t even get it?
“Should I or should not I?” is one of question that haunting my mind on never ending regulation.

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As the life goes by, I hope I will get wiser. Am I get wiser? Can I get wiser? How to get wiser?

 

PS: Today, (well, since it already 1.40 AM, should I say, yesterday?) a sweet gift from Oh la Vintage arrived, and I got an adorable skirt!! Yaayy!!! I impressed by how good the quality is, and how beauty it even seen directly. Nicely made upon my expectation! You should try ’em, they provide nice vintage outfits with a good quality!

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Ps again: It’s the first time of my life, applied the eyeliner on my eyes, and by myself!! There, there, can you see?

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