My Chaotic Philosophy

#LearnToday 5: There’s Always Another Alternative Way

For every burdens and impossible things, you might be just thinking narrow and too tight in the box. Don’t be afraid, step back, open your eyes, release your heart, look on the bigger frame.

There you go.

My Blabber Side · My College Student Side


I believe I haven’t told you that my final paper assembly and yudisium has been FI-NI-SHED~!! YAAAYY~!!!

I passed everything nicely, and hopefully with excellent grade too (eventho I know I didn’t push myself that hard to get an excellent grades as well =__=) and my graduation will be happen On August! Okay actually it’s not totally over, still final revision period to come and many things to settle, but hey, I’m officially will graduate soon eh?!

Well apparently that’s not my point today. What I want to talk is, I found this really interesting-exciting-wonderful-helpful-cute youtube channel called Ochikeron! It basically a cooking tutorial channel of both japanese and european dish and drinks. What makes it obviously enjoyable is, everything looks so simple-and-no-fuss tutorial! The dishes is cute and looks oishii too ❤ Definitely for those who start learn to cook!


So what’s the connection between my first and second topic? Well, because I will graduate soon and no longer have any activities on my post-yudisium day, I’m gonna….LEARN TO COOK~! YAAAY~!

After watching this I planned to make pancakes (yes, I don’t how to make pancakes, please don’t laugh at me =_=) and omurice and after I success on those, I’ll higher my level to curry rice or scrambled egg with rice bowl then to the level of, I don’t know, probably soup or another stir-fried or steamed dish?

Yo people who gonna start learning to cook like me, just check out her channel, won’t you? 😉

My Blabber Side · My Chaotic Philosophy

Recover and Preach


I’ve been wondering lately, what friend actually is. Is that as simple as ‘people who say hi for you constantly’ or ‘people who follows you and likes your posts on social medias’ or ‘people who telling nice things for you always’ or what. What else? Suddenly the profound things becomes shallow and vague.

I’ve made too many distance and space lately. Realized or not. Intention or accidental. It’s not hate, obviously. But I tried not to be fake or wear a mask as possible as I could. But then again, I do it again and again and again. Plastic smiles and laughs and nice acts. Compiled. Nauseated.

Humans are social creatures, that’s the reason? I wondering. No matter what, to be accepted, aquired, qualified, would be the final goals in the end.

But no, no, that’s too dangerous and risky. What’s the point of being accepted if you can be thrown away easily the next day. Everybody hates liar.

But everybody hates rotten honesty too.

Wait. It’s confusing.

Before all, it actually just a simple answer of “What’s me for you” and “What’s you for me” questions. But I don’t need more artificial reason-over-reason anymore.

And, I guess, we all aren’t.

My Blabber Side · My Chaotic Philosophy

Runway Runway

If I asked who are my inspirations, please don’t expect me to spit a cliche answer such as “My mom” or “My dad” or “My parents” like any other kids should be. I mean, they are my diamonds and I will do anything and sacrifice my everything for them, but they aren’t exactly my inspirations.

My inspirations comes from many things, many different places, many people, from a most random places. So I can’t name you just a single or two name(s), but maybe some rows hahah.

But if I have to answer more specifically, I would say that my inspirations is everyone whom are passionate about their passion, and passionate about their talents.

And that’s why I’m a huge fan of a reality competition show such a Project Runway, Master Chef, and Asia’s Next Top Model (it’s specifically Asia because I haven’t watch any other tho). Their struggle is real, and the fact that they drop dead done everything to fight their passion and life goal, it can’t be more meaningful for me. From them I learn many things and I learn so much.

For Project Runway, I’ve been watched it since I was about 12, yet that time I was such a blank canvas eager to experienced colors of life, and it teach me so much more glitrery colors that I’ve ever imagined before. Well think about it, maybe Project Runway contributed some big things for me being who I am today.


So recently I’ve marathon watching Asia’s Next Top Model cycle 3 (I tell you, I supossed to be studying though hahahah)


And my darling girl crushes are Gani and Melissa ❤ Not just they have talents and naturally model instinct, they are also humble and gentle and dearly. Ab-so-lu-te-ly love love love them!



Well just cut out my blabber, will I? Lemme’ finish this cycle then I go back to study. I promise!

My Blabber Side

When I Starts Listening Linkin Park Again….

….it means that I’ve already tired and frustrated and consumed and need revelation and enlightment or runaway or getaway.


ps: I miss taking bad-and-amateur photographs for my blog. Because bad photos is bad but they’re real, with no single pretense and manipulation.



Behalf of The Night

I starts to feel weird with my own blog. The perplexing reasons why I keep writing serious things and other’s things that I actually don’t intented to. Not that I hated it, I just feel losing my freedom. Like I losing them in my real life.


Extra: Mother just bought me this today (eeh, since it’s 00.25 should I say ‘Yesterday’ instead?) and I can’t be impressed more by oh-so-lady-like big brooch ❤

Thank you Mother, love love love this!